My life

Ok, so I told you that I was going to publish a post about Juan, Well I am just busy with the pics for it. Then I had another post, about what happened..... but I kinda deleted that. It was just a tad to sombre, and well very very very angry. So I think I may have said a few things a bit too harshly for some!!
So I will summarise it for you, in English!!

You know how people are always saying "you never know what tomorrow brings..."
Well its TRUE. You don't. You really don't.
I went to sleep one night, only to wake up to one of the most deafening silences of my life, and one of the coldest touches I think I have ever experienced.
But not only that, it was also my biggest fear in life. And it happened to me.
I woke up next to a dead person. I woke up next to my fiance and he was dead.
Yes it was and still is a shock. I was angry, I was shattered, I was in pain.
I mean Why me, why Juan?
Just like that my life changed. All my, well our plans we made. Everything we were going to do together. My life changed over night.
Life hit me down to the ground, and for a while after was jumping up and down on me. Gosh, Karma took a few bites out of my ass too. Wait did I say was. Stupid Ass life is still using me as a trampoline.
Life is a bitch, it is grossly unfair, and doesn't seem to be letting up.
So what am I doing about it?
I am fighting back.
Yes, it is a lot tougher than I thought, but I know I can get there.
I think I have gotten used to life trying to surprise me, so now I kind just go through life on the defense, just waiting for life to try its shit. May, June and July were write offs, so lets just see what the rest of the year has to offer!!!